what do you think now..

AIGHT. now what does he think of me now? soft, weak bitchh who can be played at anytime.? yeahh. all he thinks of is sex, sex, sex. i cant wait to go out with u, darling. cant wait to hold u. MY ASS is what u want right. ALL GUYS WANT SOME BOOTIE. ive proven tht withh guys.

geez. get a hold of themselves la. i hate getting treated lke some piece of meat. i duno wher tht came frm but yeah. MEAT. dude? all girls want some respect. and only with respect and 'REAL LOVE' however u define tht.. will u get respect and 'REAL LOVE' frm us girls. GET it?! GOSH. u may think girls are tough to handle and cant be figured out? think again. use ur brains rather than ur balls next time, dude.

go slow, man. go slow.

now i know..

now i understand. now i know how u felt.. i duno see. im lke the sort of person who panics when in danger. im nt the sort who stops and think then does stuff. im alah.. i duno. but in tht situation, i hurt others. and i dun care until it hits me back.

and this is what i get when i hurt him. ignored him.. reluctant to go out with him.. its nt tht i dun want to.. its my mum. im still under control. im nt lke any other child know.. can go out anytime they want. im nt lke tht. i would love to go out with u man. but i cant! and im sorry..

and now im being ignored. he's probably out in twn.. having fun. with friends. and girls. and stuff. while im at home. bloody thinking of him every second of the day.. whether he's safe. or who's he out with. i duno seeee. i duno.

its nt tht i dun trust him.. i do. im sorry. i know ure just giving me a taste of my own medicine. thanks. u made me realise my stupid mistake..

the reason why im always making u pissed at me is cause i want u to dump me. sounds ridiculous? yep. the first time we broke up.. is cause i was afraid i might really fall in love with you. cause when im in love with someone, i tend to have a hard time forgetting abt him after its all over. and yeahh long story. and now tht i did.. i dun wna be the one dumping u. cause i love u. its nt tht i want u to dump me.. but oh.. this is complicating.

ther's this girl who lkes u.. she lkes u a whole lot. and being her friend. i think im being more of a bitch. cause i knew she lkes u before i did. and i feel guilty cause i 'stole' u frm her. i dun wna have a bitter relationship with her cause she's a close friend of mine.. but at the same time i dun wna lose u too.

and making u sad, disappointed, pissed at me.. i dun feel good at all. caught in a dilemma, i am. ): and i dun lke the feel of it. nt a bit. hais. i wishh he knows what the hell im going through right now. i dun think boy-girl relationship aint my forte.. i always get in trouble cause of it. sighhs.